I love playing poker, I really do. In fact, it very well may be one of my favorite things to do. I've even played poker instead of having sex, no joke, that's a true story. The thing that's so great about poker (other than the fact that I'm good at it), is that it's so similar to life. Sometimes you have to bluff people out of a pot, just like in real life. Sometimes your holding the nuts (poker term) and no one sees it so you rake in shit tons of money. Sometimes you make horrible decisions and lose it all and sometimes you get lucky and suck out on the river. Everything in real life is reflected in poker, there aren't many games that can say that. And just like in poker there are times that you throw away cards, only to see that you would have flopped a flush. Your always afraid of doing that, some worry more than others. That's what I'm dealing with in my life right now.
For those that don't know about me, I'm a film maker (director, actor, writer), who's currently in film school and about 2 months ago did some work for a production company. They liked me so much that they offered me a full time position. Guaranteed $300 a week but would most likely be making more. I was excited but had to turn it down because I would of had to move to LA, and frankly, I just can't do that right now.
Well, I worked for him again about 3 weeks ago. Killed the gig and was offered a guaranteed $500 a week but most likely making more. I feel like I've been dealt pocket jacks but I seem to be staring at them instead of betting on them, which is stupid. So, what does this mean? Well, I might be moving to LA if the offers still stands. To be honest... I'm a little scared. I've never been on my own and I'm not even sure I'd be making enough money to be on my own. Then there's the fact that I'm not done with school. I don't need to finish but I want to for myself. I guess all I can hope for is that the flops good to me, my jacks hold up, and I make the most of the hand I've been dealt.